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yup [30 Apr 2005|10:17am]
done w/ this journal.
lj brings too much drama
plus I hate writing in it.


[29 Apr 2005|11:50pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Today was quite delightful. haha.
School was pretty good. Got home and talked to Jeff.
We ended up going to the swansea mall instead of the galleria.
I bought him and I pink and black bracelets.
They fucking glow in the dark. haha.
We met up w/ his friend Brett who rocks.
Hung out at Rick's.
Jeff and I talked which made me feel better
&went home.

FINALLY, I cut my bangs. It was needed badly. Too long. I am, or should atleast, make an apointment to get my hair cut for the 5th but eh we will see. So I have the swipe again and I might put black streaks in my hair before Monday. How kick ass is that?

Ahh it's the sexy man. haha!

= o! [28 Apr 2005|07:19pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

Wow I should heard the funniest thing ever!

aaaahhhh [27 Apr 2005|09:52pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Wow this week has been...great.
Got to hang out w/ Jeff today.
Plus Lima is fucking awesome.
Got a $1 for a bag of teddy grams from Rocky
and this kid Brian wants to poke me in my puppy.
Priceless. ha

could it get better? [26 Apr 2005|10:27pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Today was pretty good. I was suppose to hang out w/ Taco but my parents weren't going for that cause the whole failing chem and stuff. School was lame like usual but it was nice to just talk to people. I skipped study to go have lunch w/ Jeff then went to Taco's account class. Quite fun.
Got home, slept and went online. Did some homework and then Jeff came over cause it's Jeff. haha. Nah my parents don't care if he is over for some reason. Well I do but whatever.
Sorry my parents suck Jeff.

Tomorrow I am hanging out w/ him after school. I need to get help w/ my Chem homework but we will see how that goes. Hopefully I can do it on my own but if not I will try to go when I have study so I don't have to stay after. I would be pissed if I had to. I just would like to leave.

Thursday hopefully my parents will let me go w/ Taco. Friday Jeff, Taco and I are going to Taunton mall and Taco is meeting his future gf there. Niice. Saturday I want to hang out w/ Lima since I haven't in such a long time. Ugh that kid is such a good friend I don't know why I let other things get in the way of me being close w/ him again. I would ask Rocky to hang out but I know he is probably busy but why the hell not give him a call anyways. Sunday is free but eh whatever. I got something in mind.

So this week is pretty full. I am happy about it as long as my parents will accually let me go out. Eh i got to talk them into it. But this week has gone by pretty great so that is pretty sweet.
Plus the Brak Show rocks and I don't know why I never watched it before!

[25 Apr 2005|11:43pm]
[ mood | geeky ]


1. Being grounded sucks.
2. Going out w/ Taco and Jeff Friday so looking foward to that.
3. Happy that some people think I care that they are pissed. That made me laugh for a while :p.
4. Only 37 more days of school :D.
5. Got a free toothbrush at the dentist along w/ some toothpaste. Can't beat free shit.
6. Only a little bit longer of drivers ed.
7. Jeff rocks. So does his friends and Rocky.
8. My day was quite amusing. Thanks to Taco and his ways. haha.
and lj sucks. Why do I continue to write in it? Eh it's probably just for katie. haha.

By the way, how can it be that everyone else can fuck up something for someone but it's never them? Very surpising. Yup. :)

so... [25 Apr 2005|09:41am]
[ mood | amused ]

I can't believe that people accually think I care if a bunch of losers hate me.
That made my fucking day!

Morbidly funny. I don't know why though. [23 Apr 2005|11:21pm]
[ mood | amused ]

This will be up for a while. Thought it was funny.


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Yeah yeah [22 Apr 2005|10:13pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

I figure why the hell not update about my day? So that I will do.
I got up, Jeff called and decided we were going to hang out and try to find jobs.
He came and picked me up...we headed to subway, ate and went to his house. Yeah so much for finding a job. haha.
We kind of just hung out and played some Super Mario(or whatever it's called) and what not. We ate dinner and chilled w/ his parents and headed to Radical Ricks. THAT WAS LAAAAMME! Andy was a fucking idiot like always, Taco was awesome and so was this kid Mike but of course we were left alone because people are douches. We had to go up to people in order for us to socialize and then we went outside and Andy was just GAAAAY. Wow it was pretty lame seeing him trying to impress 14 year olds. What was I thinking?

We decided to go back to his house for our famous naps. haha. On the way there Jeff and I talked which kind of really helped me out. I need to take his advice cause seriously he is doing it right. Fuck this shit I let get to me cause I am just wasting my time and emotions on people who should drop.
Went to his house, played some more Mario and watched this movie. Yeah..umm.. haha. Whatever.
Ugh I don't know. I need to just relax. That's what I need to do. Plus Jeff rocks...awesomely so how cool is that?

Katie. Thanks for being there for me like my whole life. Your fucking awesome kid! You are my best friend ever and I hope you know i got your back.

just..wow.. [21 Apr 2005|10:08pm]
[ mood | pleased ]

Today was one of the best days of my life.
Just wow...I am still in amazement.
I feel so good.

CONCERTS [21 Apr 2005|11:15am]
[ mood | excited ]

Okay this summer is going to rock full of concerts.
Going to see Hellogoodbye, Sounds of Underground & Warped Tour so far.
Can't fucking wait bitches!

niiice day [20 Apr 2005|08:25pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Today was just so nice out. The weather was awesome. I didn't even realize till 4:00 that it was up to 84 degrees. I love the summer. Well more the summer nights.

Hung out w/ Ainge today. We went to Newport which rocked. His grandma took us cause well she invited us to go and showed us around. Kind of just looked around while he skateboarded and got some Ben&Jerry's cause he wanted ice cream bad. Even though I am not a huge fan the water it was so pretty. I have gone before but I never really saw alot of it. Once I can drive I may think of going back down.
Afterwards we went and just hung out. I was suppose to hang out w/ Jeff after but he hasn't been feeling good which really sucks for him and he was suppose to see Megan but she couldn't have him over which sucked for both of them. So he played guitar, I ate pizza and made up songs about Andy. Ohh fun stuff.

Tomorrow if Jeff is still feeling good I probably will hang out w/ him. Friday who knows. Whatever is going on that day will go on. haha.
I have had a great spring break so far, though. I honestly didn't think it was going to go this well. I will be busy till the weekend and that's a good thing cause I hate being around here stuck in the house sometimes. I know I have to be home one of the weekend days cause they want to take me driving and all this stuff.

So things rock and that is all. I think I just might stop writing in this because...well I don't know. haha.

yeaaaah! [20 Apr 2005|09:08am]
[ mood | dorky ]

I just noticed how much my subject titles suck. I put just random words because I am too lazy to think up of something good. Well whatever as long as I write an entry it doesn't matter.

Lately everything has been good, no I lie waaayy better than good. I really don't know what to talk about because there is so many things yet publicing emotions isn't my strongest talent. I just feel great inside yet so digusted w/ the things around me. You know what? I am not even going to talk about it just sit back and let action take place. Plus I am in too much of a good mood to want to fuck it up.

Today is going to be cool. Going to Newport w/ Ainge then he is driving me to Jeff's house to hang out. He doesn't feel good, I don't feel good so it will be cool to just sit around and chill.
Plus I still need to give that douche, Andy, back his shit. Gah i hate that kid so much.

Yeah who knows. Cause I don't know.
I just wish I could display my emotions but I have no idea how to do so. Riight. EMO!

AWESOME. [18 Apr 2005|10:03pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Ah what a perfect day.
That is all I have to say.

STOLEN FROM nugachick75 [18 Apr 2005|04:54am]
We all have things about our friends that make us slightly envious. Not in a bad way, but in a "wow, I wish I had that person's hair, eyes, money, relationship, inner beauty etc etc"

So tell me what about me makes you envy me (cheap-ass ego boost/comment whoring, I know), then post this in your LJ (or don't, whatever) and see what makes me envious of you!!

Funny stuff to see.

Grounded? [17 Apr 2005|07:33pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Okay so I was grounded today which hasn't happen since I was in 7th grade. It's just because I failed chemestry and then got into a huge fight w/ my dad but whatever.
So basically I couldn't hang out w/ Jeff, gaaaay, and sat around. I got up, ate, talked to jeff and Taco for a while, took a nap and cleaned. Wow fun huh?
Eh whatever. Last night was cool. Hung w/ Taco and Sarah, went to the mall, got drunk, went to Taco Bell, played some DDR and went home. Man last night was a wreck but it turned out awesome. Hey what can I say. I can't really say much cause I don't have anything to say. haha.

Yeah so I am pretty much happy right now. Week is filled but whatever. I don't know what to really say and that's fucked because Nicole always has something to talk about. I guess I am at loss for words.

FUCK THAT SHIT BUDDY! ha. What a weekend.

oh please do [16 Apr 2005|05:30pm]
[ mood | calm ]


[[01.]] Who Are You?::
[[02.]] How Do You Know Me?::
[[03.]] What Am I to You?::
[[04.]] Whats My Name?::
[[05.]] Whats My Middle Name?::
[[06.]] What is My DOB?::
[[07.]] Where do I go to School?::
[[08.]] What Grade Am I In?::
[[09.]] What was Your First Impression About Me?::
[[10.]] Does Any Song Remind You of Me?::
[[11.]] Am I Nice?::
[[12.]] Am I Athletic?::
[[13.]] What Sports Do I Play?::
[[14.]] Can You Always Count on Me?::
[[15.]] Am I Lazy?::
[[16.]] Am I Flirty?::
[[17.]] Have I Ever Had My Heart Broken?::
[[18.]] Am I Single or Taken?::
[[19.]] Would You Want Me as a Girlfriend/Boyfriend?::
[[20.]] Am I Hot or Ugly?::
[[21.]] Can You Talk to Me About All Your Problems?::
[[22.]] Does Any Song Remind You of Me?::
[[23.]] On a Scale of 1-10 with 10 being the Highest, How Well Do You Know Me?::
[[24.]] Describe Me in One Word?::
[[25.]] Final Question… Do You Love Me?::

shifty eyes? haha. [16 Apr 2005|11:28am]
[ mood | relieved ]

Now not to shift from my last happy entry but I must make this post. I don't know, it's negative but whatever.

Two things I can not stand is self pitty and drama. I know I have surrounded myself around everyones problems lately and what do I get in return? Oh yeah not much. I think that's why I enjoy hanging out w/ Taco and all of them because they don't just sit around and talk about how much their life sucks and how many people they hate. They are just so fucking laid back and want to have fun. I have got myself into a hole I told myself a wouldn't, pure negativity.
Plus the whole self pitty thing. I HATE IT, HATE IT, HATE IT! Everyone has it but do they need to constantly bring up how much things suck? I don't get it. When someone begins to just talk only about that no one gives a shit anymore.

I have become so fucking negative and complaining because I feel like that's all that is around me now. I am going to seriously just fucking ignore everyone's problems and live my life. I need to quit putting my shit on others too because that doesn't help me out either.

I just want to be happy like I have been for the past couple days without everyone down my back. I can guarentee that there will be a couple people pissed off at me by next month because I can tell already what's going to happen. But we will see.
Eh Sarah and I agreed how the summer is already going to go and I agree with her 100%.

PEOPLE ALWAYS CHANGE. It's a part of life. You just have to move on and realize shit happens.
Wow I feel so much better.

:D [15 Apr 2005|10:32pm]
[ mood | enthralled ]

Wow what can I say, what an awesome day.
I don't even want to go into it except Andy sucks and Jeff is awesome.
Taco is the coolest.

Man, today was just great. I can't even explain how happy I am right now. YAY!

MISERY LOVES COMPANY [12 Apr 2005|09:28pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

I just love it when people you thought you once knew become these horribly obnoxious, immature shit heads. That brings me to Skye.
I love the kid but it is so hard to be his goddamn friend. One minute he says one thing and the next it's something completely different. All I want to do is be mean to him because of the annoyance he puts me through. It's sad when your 19 year old ex acts alot younger than yourself. I know the kid cares for me and means well but I guess there was really a reason I broke up with him.

In the end it's alot about himself and his "horrible" life. To be honest I can't get over the face EVERYTHING he said to me was a bunch of bullshit. No he never changed or tried to. It is going to be the same shit with him over and over again and I don't want to deal with it anymore.

Now I know I am not perfect but I never made a promise, while going out, that I never intended on keeping. I feel like I was once again screwed over because of my desperation for someone to love. I guess what I am saying is, I am only talking to him because I have no other guy in my life right now. I care about him but in the end I could give a shit less what he does with his life. I am trying SO HARD to convience myself that I care and maybe I am not over him but that is just lies. I honestly don't care much nor am even attracted to Skye anymore.

I really don't want to associate myself with one of the biggest hypocrites and bullshiters I have met in my life but yet why do I still do so? You got me.
Ah in the end the WHOLE relationship was pointless and a waste of my time. I know there are better years to come and I don't know why I keep dwelling on the past. If I keep bothering with this I would just be wasting time and fucking myself over in the end.

I need to start thinking about my future a little more and stop giving a shit what some dip shit is going to do to ruin his already crappy ass life. Yeah I made mistakes but do you see me repeating them over and over? NO

So really go fuck yourself and that little girl slut you want to call your own. I have too much anger and hate towards you to ever really want to speak to you again. Maybe in the future things can be different but I am just fooling myself if I say I do. So have a good life I guess and try not to fuck up your life too much. I am not here for you anymore and I am taking you off EVERYTHING of mine. AIM, LIVEJOURNAL and MYSPACE.

Start talking to me when you have a hold on your life and you aren't such a shit head.
Thanks for your time.

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